Kaitlyn woke up at 630 am today. She is usually up and excited to play at this time of the day. She would start rubbing my face and start her vocal practices of Coo, Coo, Baba, Mama and Ahh ahh. Since she is already pulling and pressing down her kuya to try to awaken him, i took her out of the room and led her to the living room.
She then had her breakfast and started walking around on her walker while i was checking my mails. After a while, i brought her to our room to feed her.
About 8am Sev woke up, went out of the kids room and shouted, MOMMNY, ARE YOU HERE?
I was shocked to realize he can already talk so clear and can communicate what he feels. Several times, Sev would wake up and look for me. When he realizes i went to the office already, he would start to cry and would even tell his Manang: "Manang, iwan ako Daddy, iwan din ako Mommy. When our Manang told me about this my heart felt so heavy and somehow a part of me vowed not to leave him anymore especially that his Daddy is our on a 3 weeks mission to Europe.
And so today, when i heard him look for me, i joyfully shouted back, YES SEV, MOMMY IS HERE. He then ran from the living room towards us. He was so happy to see me and Kaitlyn. He started kissing us and hugging us. Then he rushed to the CR to pee.
Sev's question, "Mommy, are you here?" affirms me of a decision i am making now. After almost a year of discernment and consultation, i have decided to pursue another calling which which Motherhood. I have been a lay Missionary for Couples For Christ for 9 years now. Right after graduation i offered myself to be a Full time worker for the Lord
In a weeks time, i will be a stay at home mom (SAHM) and eventually become a work at home mom (WAHM).
It will entail a lot of adjustments for me and my family but somehow i feel so at peace with this decision. I know in my heart God is calling me to take care of my family, my kids and my husband.
Kirby remains to be a Missionary for CFC while i will support him through taking care of his children and our home. I'll be there for him when he needs my support in his service
Being a Missionary for 9 years is a very long time to serve the Lord in all means. I have so many wonderful memories of it.
I have yet to write my resignation letter after talking to my elders and co missioanaries but i realized its very hard to start writing. Several times during Holy mass when i offer my decision to God, i would cry hard because i see my 9 years of mission work flashing back. Memories of long bus rides in mindanao, being alone and scared in the Mission House with Marlou, traveling to Brunei for my first mission outside the country with Don, throwing up because of stress from preparing conferences,crying and laughing during meetings with kuya marco, dancing for kfc ikvs, praying hard for events, giving a talk and sharing before sfc and cfc, meeting kirby, getting married, building houses in nueva ecija with batang bayani team, working with great people in CFC and GK,meeting wonderful and amazing coordinators, loving and listening and praying. I cant even ennumerate all my memories as that would entail long time to finish.
wow, 9 years and now im answering another calling, as important, as noble and as challenging.
i look upon Mama Mary as my guide and the many amazing Moms in CFC, GK, Latch, Mompreneurs and Babymama as my inspiration.
i've always wanted to leave Missionary work not because i am tired, or i lack money or im disappointed but because i am being called by God in another area. And now i am very happy to be blessed with this. The grace of the Lord is rich to pursue another calling. Motherhood is one noble calling to pursue and the Lord is clearly leading me here. Its very difficult at first but the Lord just allows you to start loving it.
And so now, i am excited that i will be there for Sev and Kaitlyn when they need me. When they start asking where i am, i can say I am here in a blink. I want to be involved and be there on the growing years of my kids. Staying at home and doing business at home will allow me to have more time with my kids. I know God wants me to be with them now that they are in their formative years. Maybe when they grow up God will lead me back to Mission work or another area but for now, I know where God wants me to be. And I know that God can only bless us when we are in a place where He wants us to be.
This will also give me a lot of time to evangelize as well. Im busy with organizing the Regular Mass in Royal Palm residences where we live, then by start of next year, we're excited to conduct CLP for the many young couples who live here by the grace of the Lord.
There are many things i am excited to do and i know that even if im not a Full Time Missionary anymore i still can do my share in bringing people to God. im so excited.
Dear Sev and Kaitlyn,
Thank you very much for being wonderful children
Remember always that Daddy and Mommy are here for you, at all times, anytime of the day.
You simply have to call and we will be there faster than you can imagine.
We love you greatly
Love,
Mom
My heart is full of gratitude to CFC for the wonderful 9 years i've spent serving God through you.
Blessings to us all.